.... What have you thought?
>> About what ?
... About me.
>> You know better.
... What does it mean?
>> Dear, thy shall know that we are not permanent one. The day will come when I will move on with out you and that is not a selfish act but the compulsion.
.... I do not expect this from you. You have used me and exploited me and now you are telling me that you will move on and leave me here. This is betrayal to me.
>> There is no such betrayal involved to it. Don't you know that from the beginning that one day I have to go. You are not my permanent identity. This is true I have always liked you but there is rule of nature and that enforces over each of us.
... Rule of nature..my foot, whatever you are preaching me now, you shall know you have learned it because of me. The lessons, the learning's, the ways, the answers..you name any thing , I am the foundation stone.
>> I understand what you are saying but don't you feel that if you were not there then there must be some one else.
... I have made several sacrifices for you. If I am weak, I am sick or lost my strength, just because of you. I have sacrificed myself just to let you know the universe in a better way.
>> I know and I will never forget that. Whenever I will meet my creator, I will thank him for introducing me to you. You are the foremost reason for me and I respect you.
.... Because of you I have, several times, told lied and been misunderstood by people. I have always tried to give you best. Even when I was tired, I still gave you company because you were happy. There are many times when I have remained alone because of you as you are not ready to compromise with things otherwise I could have lived a better life if I have not thought about you. Now, the way you are behaving I am feeling guilty towards my needs and ashamed of from my well wishers as they have always advised me to live a luxurious life after forgetting you. You have forgot that recently while traveling there were times when you wanted to go but I was ruthlessly tired but to show my solidarity, I moved with you. Could you go if I had refused at first instance but now you would not remember it and would pretend that you are ok even without me.
>> I am thankful to you for understanding my needs and yes it is true that if you have not shown enough courage, I would have lived as aimless and I have witnessed so in many cases. People just start their day with out thinking about it and many instances they say that when right time would arrive, they would take care about it and one day they have their separation even without knowing. It is curse for both of them. I know your importance. This has happened because they are not able to understand each other. That is why I always feel happy to be with you, my friend.
.. I know what ever you saying has contents of truth but I am afraid that one day you would just depart without even letting me know. Don"t you know I have several responsibilities and commitments to fulfill. EXCUSE ME , I am not divine like you, I have many duties and for that I need your company till I come up from them.
>> Still you feel that you are so much important then I feel sad and I am sorry but truth must be told without delay that you are bound by such things till we are together. We both have been for traveling for quite good time. when you came back, did you find that any rock lost place during that period. nothing had happened and nothing will happen the way you are worrying. People come and they go, only the least ones worry and scared. You have learned so much with me, and the way you are speaking, I am surprised to listen these words.
Now you must know that I am always in you whether you were "Arun" or some one else. You do not remember me for long time because of your mortality but I do remember each moment of you even before you come into existence as you. I have always choose you over the others as the creator has pointed you for me. I have seen you when you were just a dust and then waited for you to take shape as I have patience. You shall not remain in any confusion that is why I never tell what I know till you start realizing it at appropriate time. I don't open the door but just take you there. It is you who knocks and get the door opened and there are times that when I wanted that you should open the door and you did not let that happen but I stayed calm as I know that you would understand it and do the needful. I am not a weak force , till you can hold me . you can carry me, you can help me in understanding the love, I am with you. the moment you would stop learning new or you would weak in carrying me, I will go. The journey is absolutely mine and one day when I will be completed and merged with super-soul then you do not have to think about you and there will not be any conflict between you and me.
.... (silence)........
>> You shall know that nothing is bigger and even a happiness or pain is not bigger than time. we all live in time frame. Whatever is making happy today, may not be a matter of discussion tomorrow. What ever you know today that may seem to be a foolish fact tomorrow. The wise one never argues for momentary things. He will not feel pride for momentum gains or would not sad for quick losses. There is a huge difference between comfort and rest, possessing or using. Those who have understood it they have understood the life-cycle. A life cycle does not end till one understands the perspective of life. It revolves again and like a earth rotation occurs on its axis. and days come and go but the circle would never end. It is difficult to come out alive form grinding machine but a few do so and it is called miracle. It occurs only when they want it complete without imposing preconditions. This is a good sign sign that today we have discussed this otherwise there are people who take many lives after life just for this discussion to be occurred.
.... I have understood a little but still encircled by doubts and believe that I have been used as towel for you. How can I believe that whatever you are saying is true and correct. It may be your way of thinking and specially when you know that I am not gonna discuss with any one. Recently I discussed a little with my colleague and he thought I am scared and started advising me according to his understanding. It is win-lose situation for me.
>> First of all you shall come out of win-lose, there is neither win nor lose. Have you forget that when you started it, I had also joined you. and I feel the words used by me in that discussion had created these doubts in you. I will again repeat those words that now at this phase of life I hardly need you for more labor rather now I would like you to experience what I am experiencing through you. you have started feeling me about 27 yrs back when you felt alone and broken then as per command of my creator I stopped hiding and appeared in a form before you and there after we have a bond-ship. I have experienced you in highly charged mode, then as hard worker with dedication then time came when you became risk-taker and later on many other thought processes experienced in day today life by both of us. The way you have faced humiliation, rejection, insults, appreciation, achievements, awards and love is remarkable. You have made your self a karma yogi that is why you never have arrogance, jealousy, and feeling of lost. Becoming a karma yogi is a good decision for you and you are achieving that too but as we know there is no end as it is endless path but for me I am on one of the primary stage and 'Param Pita' is still at a distance. I know when I will reach there, you would not be with me but one thing I am sure we both witness that initiation together. You are mortal and I am immortal but that would eliminate difference and after that there would not any significant meaning of mortal/immortal. The light which you have seen in the shape of two suns and the saying which you have heard by witnessing ants as an example are signs of truthfulness of what I am telling you. I have reminded you that through those dreams that you are on right path. Do not leave that path. Live normal - live today and enjoy the fruit till last breath. Never worry whether I will be with you forever or for short period. Keep learning the life only then the purpose will achieve. I am in you as you are me. Nothing is greater than this, whatever is hiding explore that, know that, I am the part of greater soul and you are part of me thus you exist in greater soul too. Wake up and rise as you have done it before not once but many times before you feel to be existed. These were happy moments which have helped you to smile, laugh naturally.
... Yes, My lord now I feel that the fear, anger in my mind was due to my non-understanding of facts. I was living in illusion and thinking it to be a reality but you have shown me the actual reality and I know that nothing lasts forever, only the learning's of life will keep you close to you and our creator. Thank you friend, thank you Shiva for vanishing away my doubts and giving me a new lease of life where now I will not count my life in age but in learning.
God bless us..!!
>>Amen !!
